Hey I just realised something the other day.
It's not Fun that I'm seeking but Flow.
Flow being the thing that Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi talks about in his book Flow.
It's the "In the Zone" "Mind like water" kind of thing.
Hell, I'm an introvert, I don't do "Fun" I get an inner satisfaction with "Flow".
No wonder I hate golf. I always thought it's supposed to be fun, but it ain't! At best, it's Flow.
All my things are about Flow, I now realise that. Tennis, Cycling, Chess, Reading on the Internet. Go Karting, what a buzz that is, but it's Flow for me, not fun, I drive round the track muttering to myself and telling myself I'm Alain Prost "The Professor of the Track". That says it all, nice and steady, wait for the person in front of you to make a mistake. The same with tennis. I hate doubles, unless I'm playing with a partner where we can really get to the net in unison. That's rare. I'll stick to the self muttering singles game. All my sports are solitary things. Flow.
It's the Flow I'm aiming for and not the Fun that I thought was missing. Fun is about saying, "Whoopee I enjoyed that." No way! I'll stick to "Mmmmmm that was nice!"
So, more Flow in my life.
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